Mia Romero’s Poetry

Mar 21, 2016 by

Mia Romero’s Poetry

One Night

 

i wake up with a start. i’ve been in a timeless deep,
except i was always aware of you lying beside me
and i’ve kept from waking you.

down there, i said the exact truth
and you willingly accepted our fate.
but now, in morning, in the shallowness of my cramped bed,
your back is to me.

i lay there, aching to snake my arms around you and knowing it isn’t allowed.
so i wrap them around myself, cup my own ass and hold still.
if i wake you, it will be over.

we laughed about everything.
laughing about the power water could hold.
do you know what kind of liquid i am
when you were looking at me and laughing, rolling me over in your waves and showers?
how? i barely know you.
but last night you knew me
over and over.
i let you.
i didn’t know who held what
i couldn’t know, i couldn’t stand.​

even awake, i am in the deep.
not because you knew me last night
but because even lying here with your back to me, you still do.​

i’m going to risk the end.

i inch over, tighten my abs until i can kneel on hands and knees.
i arch my back, hold my breath, balance just right
so the mattress doesn’t give way,
so my breathing doesn’t give me away.
i dive my nose straight in
hunting for a last hint.
lasting proof that you did lie here
that you touched these sheets,
that you were mine,
my wave of time.

for once, you couldn’t escape.
you let yourself go long enough to
find a warm bed, to
find one with me.

i can smell you, though it’s hard to source
the real you is inches away.
or is this the scent of last night-you?
sheets or skin? too close to call.

i grasp the sheet, make a tight fist
hold it like i want to hold you,
and will with all my might
to preserve proof
that will stay long after you leave.

you told me, with your palm pressed flat against my chest, exactly what this
meant to you.
beyond that was
my choice, my blame.
but how could i explain?
there was never a choice in you.
in you, i never had a say.

Mia Romero is a San Francisco based actress who recently remembered she’s a writer too.

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